Therapeutic

What a gorgeous day it is here in Florida. I am loving this spring/summer weather. With all the sunshine you would think I would be getting tan but no, I am still as white as can be. Eventually I will get there but seems like it is taking forever. Of course on my one day off with Andrew, it rains. The day I spent outside, it's cloudy and rainy. Go figure! But the rain did not keep us inside all day. Andrew and our good friend Dan, took me to the golf course. I am not much of a golfer and never really liked the sport. I figured if I wasnt any good at miniature golf, it wouldn't be any different with the real deal. We only did the driving range and it turned out to be a lot of fun but I made a complete idiot out of myself. I missed the ball more then I hit it. I surprised myself with how much I actually enjoyed it. It is something Andrew and I will both be doing together when we find the time.

Tonight Andrew starts his 12 hour shifts. :/ Leaving me home alone from 6 pm to 6 am. Then when he comes home, I leave for work. This makes seeing each other difficult. Thank goodness it is only temporary but doesn't make it any easier. You learn with the little time you have together make up for all the lonely nights apart. It's just part of the lifestyle. A lifestyle I have grown to love and hate all in one. Military spouses know exactly what I mean. What brings despair also brings enjoyment. With all the women I have met at support groups and all the opportunities it has opened up. Of course deployment, lonely days, and 10 minute phone calls are part of it but I can accept that.

Now I think I am just rambling but the blog is more of a diary of mine that I allow other people to read. I just love to write. It is therapeutic. It gives me a place I can write down all my thoughts and frustrations. I hope someone like me who is just getting started as a military wife can look at my posts and get something out of it. Some advice I didn't get when this all started for me almost a year ago. Some people think we have it all together. That it's easy living this way but it's not. I think every military spouse should have a blog or diary that they can just escape to from time to time. It helps with the chaos that never seems to end. Ever since Andrew left for BMT, I would sit down and write. I've learned it helps us both to get everything out on paper so we dont take it out on each other. You would be surprised what it does to your relationship.